Life itself tells secret, many secret. After many years of going through my life, from a kid to a teenager, what have I lost and what have I gain? Today I watch a show that teaching me this, you reap what you sow.
Then I ask myself how long have you done a good deed?
I started to feel cold.
Then I ask again, have you done anything that you feel was wrong?
Many minor one, I look down in shame.
Then you deserve to be in this sorrowful state.
Why? There are many bad guy out there why me?
NONONO, you are you and they are they. Those you cannot compare.
Then tell me what must I do?
You should know, start by doing a little kindness, it will go a long way in life. Even things like pressing the lift door, which you seldom do nowadays. I am you and thus I know your secret, but I shall take it as you are immature at that time. Been misguided by your thought, everyone make mistake, so do you. Now I give you a 2nd chance, you may not do bad stuff like killing or what, but you still did some bad stuff. It’s minor, but still it's bad. Life go a long way down, who know this minor thing will become something so big you cannot control. Do what is good, do what is right. Remember you reap what you sow.
I understand, but can my past mistake be forgiven?
You can't, but you can always mend thing back by doing good. Do you recall, the happy go lucky personality of yours when you were young, so carefree, thus you always are been shovel by luck. Now I don't see that in you, you become someone so deep thinking. Someone who gave a 2nd thought even about minor stuff. Someone who has a heart of jealous, someone who think before you give, someone who is never really happy for others when they has better stuff then you. You know what I mean. Where have the YOU I know gone to? Are you still there? I know you are. If not I won't be here, I know you wanted to repent your mistake but do you know what to do?
Yes I know, Must always have a heart to help others, no reward, no fear, no worry if they become better than you. Be happy for what other has achieve, cause that got it by effort, you may say is luck, but what goes by come around, they may got it because of something else they did. And of course never become jealous of others, if they are better than you, just admit it. No point getting jealous, what you should do is learn from them.
You have grown I would say, remember this, keep this in mind “you reap what you sow”. With a bad mind, a bad heart will only bring you bad luck. But been good doesn't mean you will get good luck, remember no reward, you helped because you wanted to make others happy. I do not wish to see you ever become someone bad, because the YOU I knew are not.