Time weaken the connection with memory, yet sometime I have this undescribe feeling. Sometime when something is lost, then I start to regret, start to have memories of it.
Yet that feeling sometime can be so strong that make me feel lost, feeling that I have lost the whole world, feeling of give up.
Then is memory useful, thus sometime it make you real down, I asked. Memory make you regret your past mistake, even after you learn from it. No matter what you try to do, it would never come back.
That bring you to a deeper regret, a sense of lost, a sense of destruction. Because the thing in your memory is so important that you will die for it.
How I wish I could sleep and never wake up, but then at the brink of death itself, yet I have another thought.
I imagine a ghost who can only rebirth after he took another one's life in exchange, that ghost talk to me,
He said
"Why are you so foolish?
I make a mistake feeling I have lost everything, and I came to this deep jungle trying to get away from this world, a ghost came and took my life.
I wasn't given a 2nd chance, but you my friend I gave you a chance to choose, but hear me out first.
I was sad, all because I lost something, something very precious to me, something that make me feel like I lost the world.
I had no one to talk to, NO ONE.
Not because no one wanted to help me, but I was keeping everything to myself, trying to think of a solution.
I try all I could to get that precious stuff back, but to no avail, what lost is lost, what done cannot be undone.
I regretted my mistake and don't know what I could do.
I decided to end my life, so that I won't feel that pain anymore, cause nothing is more important than that one thing. My life was thus ended that way.
Ask me how do I feel now?
Young boy, I feel worse, in this eternal form of mine.
I had a foolish thought, leaving this world have brought me to a path of no return.
In this very form of mine, I can't even try to get back the thing that is very precious to me.
It will never be a reality for me.
I want to advise you, to tell you my life path. Not because I want to let you regret, but because I want you to understand the true meaning of life and death itself.
Yes it is true that what lost is lost, what done is done.
But does death make you recouped what you lost, that answer is of cause a big NO.
After death itself, you will also need to face the feeling of your love ones, those you love and those who love you, your friends, those you care and those who care about you.
You may lost anything even the whole world, but do you know there is something you still have?
What is it?
Is you yourself.
Upon losing yourself than it the beginning of losing everything.
Don't be like me wandering endlessly in this deep jungle, listen to me.
As long as you still haven't lost yourself, even a lost world will come back, it's just a matter of time.
Ask yourself what have you lost, let me tell you then.
YOU MY FRIEND HAVE LOST YOURSELF.
I understand your pain very well, indeed that stuff is very important but there is many other stuff you will find in the near future.
By losing yourself I guarantee you that you never get back the stuff you really want.
But as long as you don't give up on yourself there is still hope.
Tell me how much have you really try, in life something is much harder to get then others.
You may not get it yet, that mean you are not trying hard enough.
As long as you believe there is hope and keep on trying, one day I believe you can get back what you really one.
In this world no one has a heart of steel, even a rock so strong can be weaken by water dripping from above after a long time.
You are just not trying hard enough, you are just not strong enough, be yourself don't give up.
Cause I believe as long as you don't give up, you will get what you want.
Wish and dream are just driving forces, if you never work toward it, do you think they will come true by just wishing for it?
NO,NO and NO.
After telling you so much, do you feel lucky?
Lucky to have a 2nd chance, a 2nd chance to prove to the world you can do it.
Don't give up my friend I have faith in you.
One day you will get it back, no matter how hard it may be don't give up.
Even if you can't get it back, I believe your effort will bring forth something much better.
Anyway I have something to give you, A NEVER DIE HEART.
Don't give up ever, or u will see me beside u taking your life away"