It was 2am in the morning, the date was 22/10/10. I was using computer as usually. Smile. But I wasn't feel as normal as I should be. I felt unmotivated, feeling lonely at home, feeling lost.
Why?
I am sure the answer I gave will be kind of stupid but just bear with me. There are two reason,
1. I am having such bad luck this fews day that it kind of demotivated me.
2. School is about to start and there is something that making me afraid about it
Then when I was feeling real down, I decide to go to the fridge to grab a drink. Mainly because after drinking soft drink, I would normally feel much happier. Like how people drench their sorrow with alcohol. I don't drink alcohol and I hope I never will, so I use soft drink as a cover up. Haha.
While drinking my soft drink, I was hoping someone will chat with me and hear me out. Like my friend or something, or even ask me play a game of dota to calm myself. Then I when back to my computer and there was someone talking to me on MSN.
It was Hanzo, one of my old time maple buddy. At first I was afraid to talk to him, because of something that I did, which cause him great disappointed. I broke my promise on coming back to maple to make a guild, which I knew he had put in alot of effort in it. Sorry Hanzo, if you did see this.
But instead of blaming me or scolding me or whatever else I could think of. He ask me am I alright? And I remenber he said this a day before, "we dun blame u...we have our personal life loz..maple jus a virtual game.outside the maple world we still frenz rite.you free can come and talk to us inside or outside the maple world".
Such words are those which seem like just words, but it mean alot to me. We talk for around one hour till he became tired and when to bed. I told him about my competition and some stuff that is bothering me for quite sometimes ago.
Here's our conversaton,
ME: I am very unlucky this fews days in a game.
HE: Is a game, get some chill. Learn to look forward, this is what sucessful people do.
ME: Maybe that something that I need to learn.
HE: It's a life experience thing. I learn from experience, learn to take things easy.
(And he goes on and talk about how he was like me and how he overcome it, which I won't say it here, because it not right to.)
Then, after chatting for quite sometime, he told me this,
"You take sucess and defeat too hard, being top is good. Got honour and respect, but most important is the process of learning. You fall down once does not mean you will not climb to the top again. Learn from your mistake and work your way to the top. Losing a competition does not mean the end of the world, you are still young and have alot of hurldes to go. STOP THAT, it's a corward act. Climb up and try again, we will support you."
What he said has really created a deep impact, he change my mentality. Epsicially those in purple. Those are which I felt that is very meaningful and I should share it with you all. Learn from our mistake and stand up again. Most people just fall and don't stand up again, like the past me. But thanks to him I learn a valuable lesson.
It was also that day that I realise I have alot of stress build up in me. I always thought I was a carefree person, with no stress at all I suppose. My parents don't pressure me much in my studies at all. But the truth is I am giving myself stress without me knowing. True, my parent don't stress me in my studies, but because of my nature of always wanted to be the best and to do well. Stress started to build up internally. But luckly for me, I have a friend who is there to advise me of my problems. Smiles. Guess I will stop here for today as it is getting late, but I will like to end this with a quote,
"What doesn't kill us makes us stronger."
By Friedrich Nietzsche.
Please leave a Thank You if you had read it and it helped you. Say Hi, if you are one of my friends who have visit this. Leave a comment if you feel that it's not prefect. Thanks, you never know this little action of yours will meant alot to me. Have a nice day.
Monday, October 25, 2010
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
A Step To Sucess
Have you ever tried your best and still didn't get what you wanted? I remenber this quote from someone very special to me, she said:
"The more you want the thing, the further it is."
That what she said to me. I believe her words, because it's so true.
How many times have you lost your stuff at home, and no matter how hard you try to find it, you just couldn't find it? Then when you gave up hope and stop searching for it, it appear right in front of you. And you would say, why didn't I look for it at that place? Am I right?
Recently, or should I say a few days ago. The result of a competition that I when for was out. I didn't got into the final. It hurts alot, deep down inside of me. I still remenber, on the actual day of the competition, my partner and I did our best and Mother Luck was not on our side. We scored 0/50 for the first round. Disapointed as we are, we talk about how we can do better for the second round so we could at least have a gleam of hope to go to the final.
After the first round ended, our coach told us that many of the paticipant was like us scoring 0/50. We started to have abit more hope, we told each other if we could get a prefect score for the next round, we will be able to quailified for the final. But yet again, Mother Luck was not on our side. It was not an easy task, but we manage to complete it during our test run, but during the actual run things didn't go as smoothly as we thought. Tears rolls down my eyes after the second round.
You may say I am a cry baby because I cry over such a small stuff. But the truth is I seldom cry, only when things that mend alot to me is gone. And recently I lost two things that is important to me, one is this competition and the other which I won't talk about it here.
After hearing my story, did you feel that the above quote seem true? But it's not the end of the world, because sometime you need to lose something before you can gain anything else. Like a wise man once said: "You can't fill a cup which is already full"
What it's mean is the same as what I wanna tell you. Somethings in life you will lose some stuff that is precious to you. Then what will you do? Regret? Cry? Give up?
Those are some of the stuff that most people will do, are they not? I understand how some of you may feel, you feel that the world around you are starting to slow down, time tick slower, things around you are changing so rapidly that you could't catch up. You feel lost, confuse, didn't know what you should do next. Blaming yourself, crying or even regret for not doing better.
How I know? It's because I have been through it before and this is why I wanna share the stuff that I have learn to people around me. Like a cup full with water, no matter how much you try to pour, it will just flow out. The cup full with water is like the precious things you lost. If you keep regreting or even grief over it, it will always be full. You need to take a step, empty it and then the cup can be fill again.
But the first step isn't always easy, sometime those stuff are so important that you don't wish to forget. Like the boy or girl who have broke up with you. Such things has created a impact so deep in to your heart, that you don't wish to forget. But the true is, the first step is a must to take if one's want to move on in life. The road in life is tough and at the same time it is short. They don't wait for you. If you spend too much time regreting about the past, before you know it that the end of your life.
Sometimes by losing something maybe a blessing in disguise. Let's take my competition as an example. It's true that losing in the competition is a great blow to me, because my desire of representing singapore and going to london is lost. But who knows, that by losing in the competition may open new opportuninty which I couldn't have if I was still in the competition? Or maybe by winning that competition might affect my studies, result in me unable to go to the unviersity which I wish to achieve. Right?
So to summaries all, I would like to say this. Life itself isn't easy to walk, you will face many obstacle, some which you avoid, and some which you overcome. But don't let those obstacle pull you down. Because what ever the result maybe, it's the past.
Quote for today,
"Let past be past, let present be present, what done is done, it cannot be undone."
"The more you want the thing, the further it is."
That what she said to me. I believe her words, because it's so true.
How many times have you lost your stuff at home, and no matter how hard you try to find it, you just couldn't find it? Then when you gave up hope and stop searching for it, it appear right in front of you. And you would say, why didn't I look for it at that place? Am I right?
Recently, or should I say a few days ago. The result of a competition that I when for was out. I didn't got into the final. It hurts alot, deep down inside of me. I still remenber, on the actual day of the competition, my partner and I did our best and Mother Luck was not on our side. We scored 0/50 for the first round. Disapointed as we are, we talk about how we can do better for the second round so we could at least have a gleam of hope to go to the final.
After the first round ended, our coach told us that many of the paticipant was like us scoring 0/50. We started to have abit more hope, we told each other if we could get a prefect score for the next round, we will be able to quailified for the final. But yet again, Mother Luck was not on our side. It was not an easy task, but we manage to complete it during our test run, but during the actual run things didn't go as smoothly as we thought. Tears rolls down my eyes after the second round.
You may say I am a cry baby because I cry over such a small stuff. But the truth is I seldom cry, only when things that mend alot to me is gone. And recently I lost two things that is important to me, one is this competition and the other which I won't talk about it here.
After hearing my story, did you feel that the above quote seem true? But it's not the end of the world, because sometime you need to lose something before you can gain anything else. Like a wise man once said: "You can't fill a cup which is already full"
What it's mean is the same as what I wanna tell you. Somethings in life you will lose some stuff that is precious to you. Then what will you do? Regret? Cry? Give up?
Those are some of the stuff that most people will do, are they not? I understand how some of you may feel, you feel that the world around you are starting to slow down, time tick slower, things around you are changing so rapidly that you could't catch up. You feel lost, confuse, didn't know what you should do next. Blaming yourself, crying or even regret for not doing better.
How I know? It's because I have been through it before and this is why I wanna share the stuff that I have learn to people around me. Like a cup full with water, no matter how much you try to pour, it will just flow out. The cup full with water is like the precious things you lost. If you keep regreting or even grief over it, it will always be full. You need to take a step, empty it and then the cup can be fill again.
But the first step isn't always easy, sometime those stuff are so important that you don't wish to forget. Like the boy or girl who have broke up with you. Such things has created a impact so deep in to your heart, that you don't wish to forget. But the true is, the first step is a must to take if one's want to move on in life. The road in life is tough and at the same time it is short. They don't wait for you. If you spend too much time regreting about the past, before you know it that the end of your life.
Sometimes by losing something maybe a blessing in disguise. Let's take my competition as an example. It's true that losing in the competition is a great blow to me, because my desire of representing singapore and going to london is lost. But who knows, that by losing in the competition may open new opportuninty which I couldn't have if I was still in the competition? Or maybe by winning that competition might affect my studies, result in me unable to go to the unviersity which I wish to achieve. Right?
So to summaries all, I would like to say this. Life itself isn't easy to walk, you will face many obstacle, some which you avoid, and some which you overcome. But don't let those obstacle pull you down. Because what ever the result maybe, it's the past.
Quote for today,
"Let past be past, let present be present, what done is done, it cannot be undone."
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)